Monday, May 21, 2012

Thank you . . . and an update

That bit of a break turned into more of an extended hiatus.
Thank you for the emails, calls and cards inquiring about my recovery.
During the last couple of weeks, my finger is beginning to look more like the finger I remember.  There is still some residual swelling. 
It is still numb from my knuckle to fingertip.
I am so relieved that my fingernail hung on, and has started growing again!
I have never had great nails, and thyroid disease only makes them worse.
I am even more thankful to still have all ten, and not have lost any to Mr. Snake's snack.

There are still pricks of pain when I try to grip objects, or hold heavy items.
It improves with each passing day.

So, the physical recovery is going well.
The emotional recovery is taking a little longer.

I have attempted to conquer my fear and return to my yard.
I will not lie.
It is difficult.

Playing in the dirt and tending my plants was always therapeutic and relaxing.
Now, I am tense and always vigilant.
I no longer let go and allow my mind to wander.
I miss that.

As the photographs show, Spring brought new life and blooms to my yard.
I do sneak out with my camera to capture the growth.
But, the grass no longer tickles my bare toes. 
There are always shoes on my feet.
My eyes are always on the ground, and not gazing upward or all around at the marvels of nature.
I miss that, too.

Since the bite, there have been more frequent and prolonged bouts of double vision.
It is unknown whether they are due to the bite, stress of the incident, interaction of drugs, or simply the unpredictable progression of Grave's disease.

So, there is still some healing and recovery ahead.

I wish there was a report that my closets are all cleaned, my spice cabinet organized, and desk completely clear.
Or, that I spent time playing in my sewing room, creating wonderful things.
Dream on!
While it may have been quiet here, life continued at its usual hectic and demanding pace.
Air conditioning units broke, hot water tanks leaked, automobiles needed servicing, and family situations required attention.
My online store remains open, and days are spent filling and shipping orders.
In the midst of pain, healing and concern, I am grateful for the day-to-day normalcy of life.
Although, some days are easier to be grateful than others.

And I am grateful for the little surprises of life!
As if they knew there are times only chocolate can help.  I now can head toward a certain fast food restaurant and have my favorite milk shake and cookies to go!

I have always believed that God's timing is perfect; that all things work together toward the good.
Shortly before Mr. Snake slithered into my life, I had considered closing my blog.
I never dreamed a snake bite would provide the opportunity and time to give greater thought to the idea. 
Over the past weeks, it has been nice to be unplugged; to have one less item on the agenda.
On the other hand, I miss visiting with all of you.
The coming weeks are crammed with obligations, responsibilities and events.
It may still be awhile before I resume regular blogging, and the possibility of stopping is still on the table.
The only thing constant in life is change.

I have been so deeply touched by the outpouring of concern, the warmth of your compassion, and the power of your prayers.
Thank you for continuing to visit and care, even in my absence.

It is difficult to believe that it is almost June.  Summer is here!
As we close May, I am grateful our son successfully completed his first year of law school.
I congratulate family members and friends who are graduating and beginning the next phase of their life.
I look forward to long days of sunlight, the better to see and sew.

As we celebrate Memorial Day, I am forever in debt to those who serve and protect our country, so that we might enjoy all these things and so much more.


Jeannie B. said...

Hi Jan! It is hard to to think about the repercussions of your snake bite but you have made me understand very well. The pleasures of a garden are that you clear your mind and just "be" surrounded by living, growing things. The snake has robbed you of that and I hope it will be temporary. It gives me a greater appreciation of my time in my garden. Love, Jeannie

Laurie said...

I was just thinking of you yesterday and how I miss your Sunday inspirations.

Don't let that snake steal your sunshine. We do need to take precautions, but I would think that the probability of having another bite would be low. You've been gardening for years.

Sewbusymor said...

I too have been looking everyday to see if you are writing again. I pray that you will again enjoy your outside playtimes and not give in to the fear. Glad you are busy... and healing!

Claudia said...

Oh Jan - I somehow missed your post about the snake bite! I went back and read it - how terrifying for you, my friend. I'm glad you're healing and I understand your hesitance in being outside. Yes, you must be careful. Wear gloves. I do. Two years, I got an infection in my finger from weeding - somehow I pulled something that infected my finger. It became very painful. Now I'm not equating the infection with a snake bite, but I did learn my lesson and now wear gloves all the time.

Take care, feel better.


Eileen said...

Prayers for peace and healing and peace are being said. I think of you often as I go through my own eye issues and hope you are well.

Cynthia Gilbreth said...

You poor dear! I'm so glad you're on your way to recovery and are back with us, if only intermittently. I hope you can get back into your sewing studio to make something lovely. Take care of yourself, I'm praying for you.

Kellie said...

I pray this adversity is coming to a close shortly for you. I enjoyed this post... with all your pics it made up for your absence! I do hope you are 100% very soon dear blogging friend!

Unknown said...

Jan, I am so glad to see you update. I have thought of you often and you've been in my prayers. I would have to say that Jim and I have been much more protective of ourselves in the yard since reading of your encounter with Mr. Snake - hiking boots and garden gloves are now required here when working in the yard. Prayers for your continued recovery. You're still in our thoughts often.

Linwood & Margaret said...

Jan, I am so glad you are better. I have checcked the blog daily, just in casse you were able to write. You will continue to be in my prayers. I think of you often.

Diane B said...

Jan- I too have checked your blog often looking for an update on your condition and your always thoughtful and inspiring words. You remain in my prayers and I will pray specifically that your fears are overcome and you can truly enjoy your garden again.

Saint Nolt Sews said...

So glad you are recovering and doing better. I have often stopped and prayed for you over the last few weeks. Continue on your road to feeling better.

Michie' said...

Jan, I have thought and prayed for you often, and am glad to hear that you are doing better.

Lesley said...

I've been checking in to see how you've been doing, I'm so glad you are doing better, I can understand the not relaxing in the garden it's going to take you some time, but thoughts and prayers from all your friends can't but help. Lots of love

Michelle May-The Raspberry Rabbits said...

Continuing to send light and love your way. All we can ever do is take each day as it comes and live in the moment letting our hearts be our guides.
Thinking of you sweet lady.

Tammy@Simple Southern Happiness said...

I had no idea of your snake bite so its good to know you are on the mend. I pray the rest of the year will be smooth sailing for you. I will never take for granted now my lack of wearing gloves and where I walk from now on. GOD bless and keep you safe.

Anonymous said...

I'm thrilled to learn that your recovery is proceeding. Your eloquent (and poignant) caution about reaching in the garden made me ache for you. I confess that your experience has made me a lot more careful about where I put my hands. Good luck and God bless.

Kathy Ellen said...

My prayers for your continued healing are with you, Jan. Your writings are always so touching and inspiring, and I am glad to know that each day, you are feeling a little better. May the Lord always walk with you every day, and may you feel the warmth of the sun and the beauty of His world in you life. God Bless You, Jan.

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